Loving life so much right now, even though I’m struggling I know I can get through it. Positivity!
I am just an extremist and have a tendency to swing toward either side, which gives me a tendency to get depressed easier. Fortunately, I understand myself really well and have found what triggers this and what does not. Depression is not on my mind everyday. I lead a very full life and can 100% say, I am so, so happy. That doesn’t mean I can’t have days where that creeps back in, but I would say that I have overcome it, even if I will always have to fight the tendency to swing toward it every so often. People tend to think that ‘overcome’ means that I never will ever deal with it again, but that is just untrue, as we just live in a broken world where things like depression can easily creep back in. But I live with joy too, and that is what matters. :) I think, depending on who you are, it is very possible to overcome depression in this way. Some people have chemical imbalances and medication can be a way to fight it too. Other ways work for me, but medication may be what is needed if you deal with it. It is found in different degrees and everyone reacts differently to it. I would never want to give a blanket copy answer to people, as what works for me may not work for other people. But community, love, my relationship with Jesus, and slowly making choices to see the good things around me are choices that allow me to live in joy on a daily basis. :) Thank you!! <3
I really wish I had screenshot those texts messages now. When feelings were just good company and pure…. I miss that.
I’m hurt. But in a way I’m over it. Why stress about something of the past?
I must say going through all trials & errors with a previous person makes it that much more appreciative when you finally meet that exceptional one. Because of those previous “Y” (as in y did I ever date them?!) I am more certain of what I want & need and what I don’t want and won’t tolerate. So when I realize who that person is, or meet that person, the love we share is that much more intense. Amplified. Worth it. The love I have to give is far wider and far greater. And I think that’s what makes it amazing. When we realize… Love is giving. That’s what makes us happy.
And I am absolutely happily in love with him.